happiness begins with you

Let’s talk about boys. I went into this school year saying no to boys. No dating, no flirting, and no getting my hopes up. I want to take this time to work on myself. This is the last year of school. I want to take advantage of this time making memories that will last forever with the friends I have in my life. Of course I am lonely and wish I had someone to curl up on the couch with to watch movies. But I had that this summer. I had a boyfriend over the summer and felt uncomfortable the entire time. Why do I want to put myself through that again now? I was always nervous he would leave or want too much. Which happened in both cases and made me realize I am not ready for a relationship at the moment.

I am happy I figured that out over the summer before going into the school year so I can work on my happiness because that is something I still need to work on. I am putting myself first. Something I have not done in a very long time.

But saying good bye to a buy and ending all contact was a hard choice. Always wishing he reaches out to me but I know it is for the best.

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