We have all been rejected once (or twice… or a hundred) times by now in our lives. We have been rejected from a crush, from a class we were trying so hard to get into in college. We have been rejected in many different forms and some are not all that bad. Rejection doesn’t mean that what you have to offer isn’t valuable. It just means you’re trying to give it to the wrong person.

But what do you do when the entire plan you had figured out for your life gets rejected? Recently I received a letter that I did not get a job in a program that I have been planning to work in since I was six years old. Okay, I cried and got over it. But now what is plan b?

There is a freedom that comes with not knowing what you are going to be doing next month, next year, or even in 5 years! I have no idea what I am doing with my life but I am weirdly okay not knowing the path I am going to take. I am a little too collectively calm not knowing what the heck I am going to do.

I have been working since I was 14 years old and I have been at my job now for almost a year in June. This job was supposed to be temporary but now I found myself working in a business rather than a nonprofit helping kids (which is what I told people I would be doing with my life since I could talk). A lot of my friends are in serious relationships, traveling the world, are back at school getting their Masters, or are kicking butt at their jobs. I am not and that is okay!

It’s hard to believe that I am a college graduate with a full time job and balancing paying bills, juggling a social life while trying to catch up on sleep. I know I am very lucky to say I have a full time job that I love even if it does not pay much and it is not in my field. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity to have a flexible job to take off whenever and figure out what I want to do. Last June I started the process to get into a program and it did not work out. Once again I have the freedom and opportunity to decide what I want to do with my life. This freedom only comes a few times in life so instead of stressing, I am enjoying every minute of saying I don’t know.