I am scrolling once again on Indeed looking at the jobs out there while wearing my pink fuzzy robe and slippers sipping on a Diet Coke shoving food into my mouth. I come across a simple desk job and start yawning as I read the job description. Next. Oh look, a dog walking job….something I am actually qualified for. Keeps scrolling. Finally, a job that is interesting and while I can do this job, I don’t have the right qualifications. I then type into Google…. Jobs for millennials…. fun jobs…. jobs where you can meet people….. and finally, what should I do with my life. For once, Google fails me and I am looking at a bunch of links that don’t relate to what I originally started to Google. Oh, look…a Buzzfeed quiz. Focus!

When I graduated from college, I didn’t know what I was going to do with my life. However, my teachers, friends, and family kept telling me all of the amazing things I would do in life. Whelp. Here I am, 25 years old and still trying to figure out what that amazing thing is. When I scroll on Facebook to see what my peers are up to so I can maybe get inspired, I just realize how behind I am in life. Single, not engaged or married, not even dating. I love my job, but I am missing the city life and more importantly, I need my evenings and weekends off so I can work on that whole dating/making friends thing.

I had a plan, which was to find out what my plan was and unfortunately, I still haven’t checked that off my to do list. I see my friends accomplishing great things and I scroll seeing my friends brunching and soul cycling together. Meanwhile, I spend my Sundays rushing to work and on my third cup of coffee before I leave the house in the morning. I want more in life. I just don’t know what that is.

In the movies, our twenties are bar hopping, balancing a social life with a career and just having fun with our friends before we all get married. Right now, my life is not even entertaining enough for reality tv! Is it bad that I get some joy in life when someone else doesn’t have it figured out, too? This life is not what I planned, but I am actively working on making a new plan. Life is short and I have decided to start having fun in life again. Who knows where this new life will take me, but for now I am going to work on getting a new job and not be so picky about it. Gotta start somewhere. Hopefully, now that I am accepting that I don’t know what my plan is, I can actually start working on that new plan.

Let me know if you are stuck. Watching life go by and you just feel stuck. I am ready to embrace the unknown, but I know that I will fail, not be able to afford rent and probably have to give up my daily Starbucks splurge to afford adult things like bills. Adulting is hard, but doing it with you all makes it a bit easier.

Sending love from my kitchen table while I am wearing my pink fuzzy robe, slippers on with an empty Diet Coke can.